KILL MY ANXIETY

KILL MY ANXIETY is a deeply vulnerable body of work that plunges listeners into a dark, somber world where each track personifies a different form of anxiety. Through raw storytelling and introspective lyricism, the project peels back layers of fear, insecurity, and emotional unrest. The production weaves between eerie minimalism, gritty textures, and moments of quiet comfort—mirroring the unpredictable nature of the mind. This album doesn’t offer easy answers, but instead invites listeners to sit with their discomfort and find strength in the honesty. - EXCLUSIVELY PRODUCED BY FLOUSEN

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TRACK 1

FEAR

In a little dance with fear

locking palms we hand and hand

every time I step on toes

she seems to put me in a jam

I understand

the ones I did so wrong must want revenge

my demons want my soul

it be so cold don’t let ‘em in

Just like the soda out the fridge

I had some pressure in my ribs

And I exploded with a shout

it was so loud it ruptured ears

It even spawned a couple tears

you see I know they won’t forgive

and I be standing here with fear

and boy I know she won’t forget

I be cautious with my steps

so I won’t step on toes again

my foes are friends

and see I’m phony too

so both of us pretend

You see I chose the way I live

and got regret that be my gift

and all the times that I have dipped I think about them with a spliff

see I ain’t shit

we be dancing nice and slow she be keeping me in check

Steady rocking to the beat I pray some day the song will end

But I fear that when it does another song will start to play

And right then she pulled me close and then our bodies start to sway

(she told me keep on dancing til there’s blood up on that dance floor)

2 stepping wit fear

Im terrified I say a I’m fine

another lie in you’re ear

I normalize it though

always try to hide

I don’t realize I’m holding trauma though

You see I try to cope

you smell the marijuana smoke

With vision cloudy i can see that you ain’t proud of me

I’m careful with my movements cause she’ll lose it if we’re not in sync

While we continued dancing Fear had looked and moved her mouth you see

She said she gotta sister and her name it be Anxiety

Like for the life of me

I’d like to tango solo

ain’t no hope that be inside of me

a coward is what I be

my dreams are sour, can’t you see?

and I have some doubts that I’ll be free

because reality is mean yeah

PARANOIA

Momma drinking beer again

father talking ignorance

we late on rent

hardest times I hope that we survive

try to hold it down

telling lies they thinking that I’m fine

wear a perfect smile

getting high ain’t never calm me down

nerves are really bad

I’m paranoid

I get it from my daddy

always think about me crashing

ending tragic

inna casket

every day I try suppress

but there’s a leash up on my neck

is this a test?

in my mind all I think about is checks

rid the stress

weight up off my chest

live wit no regrets

that’s what I see

when I’m in my dreams

lately I don’t sleep

see I just scheme

gotta break the curse

they depend on me

I’m taking leaps

I’m sick of the hurt

don’t see me when I bleed

I try to move on forward but my feet on a mine

you never see when I cry

in search of peace for my mind

im feeling stuck

I wanna be in love

i hope it free me up

I fake my tuff

feel like I’m alone I’m vibing to my songs

and that be my escape

I couldn’t fake a single word I say

I’m over worked and hardly rapping

think this shit consuming me

this shit ain’t new to me

we go to war I bet you lose to me

got so much anger in my heart I just might do a shooting spree

Not understood when I do speak

and so Id rather bite my tongue

when I was young

I was full of bliss and always having fun

now I’ve gotten older watching shoulders gotta keep a gun

be attacked by a nigga

skin be black just like us

TRACK 3

BUMBOY

I told her meet me at my mommas house

don’t cause a shout

cause if my momma wake

well then she tossing out

she called about her nigga tripping

now she wanna come around

I play my part

And say some words to warm her heart

That lighter spark

like come here baby

you believe his lies with his disguise

I know that drives you crazy

he be in the wrong for what he did

but see I tried to save you

could’ve been all mine but yet you blind

but see I got some patience

but for now your visitations

got me anxious

smiling faces

and a couple laughs that we exchange

I do enjoy your time with me

but there’s some thoughts that run my brain

he’s the one with all the funds

he even copped a couple chains

you ain’t say that y’all was done

but yet you cuddled up with me

I can’t complain

Numb each other’s pain

I be at a low but I never say a thing

but I know that you can see

but I’m un-phased

even let a nigga hit

I ain’t had it in some days

truth be told you my baby

Yeah you know that you my bitch

Yeah you know you be my baby

Aye

see let him know

though I got you for a limited time

I’m forever yours

I don’t even even see myself as a side

it ain’t a chore

I love the way you look in my eyes

come see me more

Your my….

Low stepper

minimize in the cold weather

hiding all my shivers when I’m with you

Cause that 4 letters eat me up

I guess I be a dummy when we be in touch

girl I’m looking bummy with no money

what you see in us?

Is this a game?

should I run?

cut you off and stack some funds

this shits insane

but I like us vibing sometimes wonder

should I pick ya brain?

you don’t be with me

but yet you speak of him like he the lame

then come my way

don’t say a word

this ain’t charades

Ain’t nobody perfect I know this

but yet I live in ya lies

and fantasize about us working

ain’t no hurt in our site

like leave that nigga

you should come and be wit me

yeah he got a couple figures but you know I be your peace

come be with me

My homie said that I be tweaked

but he don’t see what I do see

you and me

me and you

see you ain’t never gotta leave nah

You ain’t never gotta leave

You ain’t never gotta-

I gotta ease off you

can’t be ya man so I speed off

look at me lost

what does he offer?

Stuck on this bitch got me peed off

and my niggas had to me to be cautious

looks like I got me an answer

bitch is a cancer

reason I be nauseous

she’s heartless

Aye

Who be the bad guy?

Looking like you stuck in your ways

until you flatline

bad signs

went the wrong way

almost had crashed out

back now

I’m not the same

that be a fact now

I can’t pretend you my girl

I’m done with wasting my time

I gotta live in this world

TRACK 04

INNOCENTS

Lost one’s are in the darkness

grieving hearts and teary eyes for for many that have fallen

faded dreams and bloody puddles shit will make you nauseous

take you to the start think the niggas name was Author

looking from afar you wouldn’t think there’s many problems

but there’s lots of things he bottles think he gets it from his father

mommas always working so the nigga rarely saw he

author was no scholar got a job just moving boxes

doing something smart saving money for a car

he had many dreams of leaving/ he been feining for a broad

never had the love because the nigga never talked

he was bullied back in schooled cause they assume he that he was soft

they assumed he shrugged it off

but he’s been holding that for long

one day on the clock he saw a shorty from afar

her name was Dominique and what’s unique is how she talked

He loved the way she talked

Author was a loner she the only one who greet him

start to love to come to work and clearly she the reason

not a social butterfly but damn she got him speaking

he thinks she might be interested in hanging out this weekend

he was dreaming

fantasized of how he wished they’d be

she start to mean so much to him the reason why he breathed

he thinks that she In love wit him cause why else would she speak

she ain’t got no motive to be lying thru her teeth

finally

after plotting gained some confidence

rehearsing to himself practice all the lines he’ll spit

if the others see him fail would they try to knock the kid?

but cowards die a thousand deaths he gotta spark the shit

When he seen her walking in that boy Author start to cheese

he’s been waiting for this moment he approached her with his scheme

but out of his peripherals a silhouette appeared

let a couple shots and left 3 bullets in her ribs

damn.

TRACK 05

SHADOW

I don’t talk about the demons chasing after me

but see I’m good at running

your assumption is my grass is green

the saddest scene

dancing silhouette up in the dark

he had a crooked smile

and in his shaking hands it was his heart

the sounds of patter feet

echo through the halls If I exhaust

then all the progress that I’ve made won’t mean a thing

and it’d be lost

til I can barely breathe

imma up the speed I’m taking off

in search of better things

what if I hit the peak and then I fall?

will they hear me scream

The shadow man is steady dancing in the dark

and on his face a crooked smile

and In his hands it be his heart

I couldn’t tell if he’s in pain

cause when I blink then he was gone

You should’ve seen his face

boy I seen some sorrow in his eyes

and I felt sorry

cause his crooked smile a horrible disguise

and I’m so empathetic

mirrored all my trauma in his image

is it my reflection?

maybe shouldn’t run against the wind

I hear him catching up to me the opposite of friend

I pray he never touching me/ those scars will never heal

I try to keep away

but it’s hard to shake em for the time

I gotta keep my pace

until I am escaping my demise

I can not hesitate

he shadow man no longer dancing in the dark

as soon as we locked eyes

he then realized he need my heart

he had an crooked smile with rotted teeth but that ain’t all

he started giving chase

I think he sense the fear inside my eyes I try run away

sprinting from my demons all my life

looks like ain’t nothing change

TRACK 06

JAH (feat. Perry Mason)

Conversations with Jahova

need some closure

what’s the point of life?

got all of these emotions

how I hold them?

yeah I need advice

or maybe bigger hands

I need a chance

know you hearing me

help me understand

pray I find some peace

I got these demons haunting me

they on to me

feeling bummy

I ain’t did my laundry

I’m wandering

feeling lost

guide me through the dark

if I take another L

that might lead me to your arms

or I just might do some harm

Father god

hope you hear me when i plea

send your angels down to watch

they don’t hear me when I scream

so I take a pen and jot

pray this talent sets me free

I’m just staring at a clock

Conversations with Jahova

need some closure

what’s the point of life?

got all of these emotions

how I hold them?

yeah I need advice

I ain’t read the book

so please forgive

still I be your child protect me while I live

TRACK 07

WINGS

lighter spark

smoking to much gas I had to buy a cart

a lotta holes inside the summer cold

its something like my heart

I’m only human and I have emotions sick of acting hard

I’m in the dark

codes inside the lyrics but they couldn’t parse

I never fault them

I find it funny how

I’m always your therapist you scary when it’s turned around

I Perry when the demons jab

I learned it on my own

and I’m better with my healing now

I do it in these songs

but my songs are always sad I guess I’m reaping what I sow

I did damage to mentality from sitting all alone

like what’s inside me

I fantasize that be my cope

the shit is frightening

when I realize

my demons at my throat

use to sip on bottles til’ my stomach told me throw it up

now I sip on bottles til my stomach tells me throw it up

smoking til’ I choke it up

Like how I relapse?

add some paranoia to the spliff and let ya seat back

I enjoyed when I was full of bliss

where that peace at?

got my toes along the edge of cliff

like will my wings flap?

TRACK 08

DIM

Tell me how I leave the freezing cold?

I asked a wiser man he said to me he didn’t know

I’m getting numb

so much trauma shit is getting old

I tried to run

felt the wind

it’s sharper than a sword

where is the sun?

Don’t break my reverie

this little dream I got is all I have

so please just take it easy

conversations with myself

I learned that I’m my biggest demon

who can free me?

tried to free myself but ended up

with all these fucking lesions

now I’m fucking bleeding

WHACKO:

I hope you hear me say these words nigga

I’m sick of crying all alone I’m full of hurt nigga

DANNY:

Hurt nigga

look into my eyes and see I hurt wit ya

know I live a lie

see this I hide

you see I’m worse than ya

poker face the strongest when I talk

cause I don’t fuck with them

yet I keep a smile like I be proud

they never know the difference

truth be told I go with it

WHACKO:

But who am I to live a lie?

you see that you be bleeding

yet you treat it like you feeling fine

I can’t relate

you better fucking hear me when I speak

you be running from ya problems

you ain’t strong you fucking weak

I see you falling to ya knees

DANNY:

But who would know but you and me?

they can’t read between the lines

got crooked signs up on my street

WHACKO:

I think you need a fucking shrink

DANNY:

So I could pay them for my weeps?

I swear to god it’s best to sit in silence

play this game with me

it’s in my favor can you see

WHACKO:

Boy it’s a coward what I see

DAMNY:

Man whatever bet you think you’re clever

ain’t no shaming me

It’s best to hold it

you should ask my daddy

he’s been training me

Or ask my momma

she be holding trauma

gave my name to me

WHACKO:

You start to sound insane to me

DANNY:

you questioning my sanity?

I’m supposed to hold the damage

Why you not a fan of me?

WHACKO:

That’s because you live in make believe

you suffer on the low

like yo homies ain’t ya brothers

you should call em on that phone

tell them how you really feel

and maybe heal that broken soul

DANNY:

Because they’ll see me as a loner

contradict I said before

I’d rather laugh when wit the bros

not feeling bad I’m at a low

WHACKO:

But if you foot is on that edge

then see you better let them know

DANNY:

I’d rather suffer on my own

I’d rather hold

Fuck…..

And to the bitch that I love

don’t blame ya self because we never got to fly like them doves

I hope you know the love is real

See it’s a powerful drug

I think I’m stuck

we ain’t getting in touch

I pray that after I jump

you do forgive me I was trippin for the things that I’ve done

I wasn’t used to that fun

don’t think you calling my bluff

my light be dim

I’m sorry I’m advance…..

light bulb going dim in a dark eerie roo

eerie dark creep dead forest in the fog.

TRACK 09

LOSS

what have I lost?

you pose to be here by my side

you said you was down

but you gotta life of your own

so how could I frown?

look at us chasing our dreams

just stick to your path

I’ll see you when you come around

I tell you I suffered a loss

the time wit my granny I’ll say that I’m full of regret

I should’ve cherished ya presence ya feelings is missed

now I have a gram of my own and I gave it a kiss

hope that it’s ridding the stress

Loss my mind

this spiff it does hit different when you sit silence

look behind me

im so fucking paranoid

can’t calm me down

I fake my happy

I don’t want want your sympathy

this mask I wear

I loss the passion

me and all my loneliness im kinda scared

you couldn’t fathom

I might lose my voice

and prove the point that nothing last forever

hear the echos in my room

I like to dance to lonely tunes

I gotta cope that’s why I smoke

I see the glow project from moon

reflection man is being rude to me

that shit ain’t fucking cool

come wipe these tears of mine

with love there’s also fear

so hold me near no point in acting shy

you say you be me bro well stand 10 toes

and say you love me now

and to my future girl just be my world

you know I’ll hold you down

my momma told me life is hella hard

just gotta hold my smile

her golden child

arrows in my back all while I be grieving

yet I’m still standing proud

I’m scared of loss…..

TRACK 10

MORTAL

Alone wit all my thoughts again

ain’t nobody saving me I’m sitting in the dark again

wonder what they think of me?

I like to close my eyes

begin to dream and fantasize

about me in a better life

demons always start a fight

and it be hard for me to quiet them

smoking all this weed but it don’t seem to calm my mind I swear

sick of feeling sorry for me guess I’ll fake my guess I fake my smile for you

wondering if you’d die for me cuz hope you know I’d die for you

alone wit all my thoughts again

ain’t nobody saving me

I’m sitting in the dark again

wonder what they think of me?

I like to close my eyes

begin to dream and fantasize

about me in a better life

I wish my life was immortal

when will it end you don’t know when your chosen

no gps idk where I’m going

yeah I got plans

feet in the sand

stacking up bands ride around wit the homies

those are just dreams yeah/ shit ain’t as good as it seems

Yeah

I wish my life was immortal

when will it end you don’t know when your chosen

no gps idk where I’m going

yeah I got plans

feet in the sand

stacking up bands ride around wit the homies

those are just dreams yeah

shit ain’t as good as it seems

thank you for listening to this

I had this album done since late 2023. It was agonizing having to hold it for so long. I was originally gonna drop it in April of 2024 but the whole hiphop beef happened which delayed it some more. It finally dropped in October of that year. I love this album so much. The lyricism, the vulnerability, the story telling, and also the production. I knew I wanted FLOUSEN to produce this one because his beats create worlds. It fit the eeriness that I was looking for. I'll forever hold 'KILL MY ANXIETY' near my heart. I even got it tatted on me.